Fume chronicles - Diego
You made me feel the size of an Ant, not a feeling that has ever been foreign to me unfortunately but the one difference with you is you shined a massive light on it to many people and made it very hard for me to ignore it.
I still rarely feel the fear for a few seconds, the fear of being laughed at and humiliated, you opened that door and I still struggle to lock that particular door.
I see you nowadays balding head, stupid ears and miserable face, I feel ashamed I gave you power. I don’t often feel anger about you, just pity and then shame that I let you control my mood for so long.
Ultimately I doubt you ever think about me but that’s the thing with our actions even when we are young and reckless they can have a profound and damaging effect on people we won’t even think about in 20 years time.